Would you pray for a Grad Student? (Part three)-Why me? 

I can’t get into all the specifics now because I’m still processing everything, but basically I found out about something that is not my fault, but could still keep me from graduating on time.I feel that everything I do is attacked. 

Problems arise when I make a transition in my life. Every little thing and something goes wrong. 

I understand suffering, but I feel this has been too much and wonder, “why me?”

Please help me. 

I want to obey Him and know what his will is.

I really need a job. Been out of work for almost nine months (also not my fault). 

And I need peace.


Please pray for me 

God bless 

“Humble me”-be prepared 

“God, humble me.”

“I want to be just like the proverbs 31 woman!” 

Two weeks later I sit here typing up this blog post feeling so small. So humbled and so in love with God. 

I’ll tell you now….it wasn’t easy and I still have much to grow in. 

I knew these kinds of prayers were big things to ask of God, so why did I expect not to see my life complicated? Why did I take my eyes off Him and start thinking anxiously when things were taken from me and I felt lonely? 

Prayers of this nature are not for the faint of heart. 

Will I still love God if He takes things away from me? 

Am I holding on to idols? 

Is my attention focused on God or my desires? 

These prayers literally broke me. But what a wonderful thing that is! 

The Lord is near to those who have a broken and contrite heart! (See Psalm 51:17 and Psalm 34:18)
I struggled to understand why so many people were moving forward with life–getting jobs, living the “adult” life and doing things on their own—and God didn’t seem to want me to go beyond the borders of my rough neighborhood and leave my parents’ house even though He knew I was having a hard time.  When my plans to move out and move on fell through I was crushed. 

But that’s where the problem started. That was MY plan, not God’s.

Would I still love Him if he took that possibility away from me? 

If you are a Christian you have likely heard it said over and over again–“God will work it out for good. Trust Him.” (See Romans 8:28)

It is said so often it almost goes right through us and we nod our heads so the person talking would know we understand. 

But do we really understand? 

For me, I stood for as long as I could, but it didn’t take long for me to look at my crumbling world and tremble. 

But He is faithful even when I am not. (See 2 Timothy 2:13)

Through my difficulties He showed me the work He was doing through me. It wasn’t going to be easy, yet He would not let me fall. 

It was a very tough two weeks. God is good. He worked so much in my life in those two weeks praying those prayers and I didn’t realize until the end of it that I was growing so much. I messed up at times, sure. I got upset and didn’t react in the best ways all the time. I’ve got much to grow in, but I can confidently say I have indeed grown a lot in two weeks simply getting on my knees every morning and praying, “Lord, humble me.” 
Will you pray that God would humble YOU?

Sorry I’ve been away…

I’ve been so busy with school and so much has been going on I haven’t had much time for blogging. 

I had a break down about two weeks ago because my sister took my rabbit to live at her house where the environment is better and he’s closer to the vet. 

She’s only 15 minutes away, but you gotta understand that at the time I felt she was taking away something I cared so much for and brought me so much joy in the midst of stress and loneliness. There was no warning. She just came by and took him away. I couldn’t sleep that night  and my sadness turned to anger which I let out on my dad the following morning. 

Also had been feeling sad about some issues in my social life. Being away from people I care about and doing my classes online gets very lonely. 

Due to the amount of emotional pain I felt, I decided to take a break and see some friends last weekend. While that would ultimately mean having to catch up on school work (and maybe have to pull an all-nighter) upon coming home, I felt it was the best thing for me to do.

Friends and I watched War Room. If you haven’t seen it, check your local movie theater for show times and go see it! I was so inspired by it I have really changed my prayer life. Prayer is so important and my friends know I pray for them daily. It is just so much more important to me. It can’t be something I just do once or twice a day- one time in the morning and one time before bed at night. It has to be something I do throughout the day–with my heart, on my knees, led by the Holy Spirit. 
God is so patient with me. Things fall apart in my life and I worry and cry, but He always shows me at the end of it all that everything was going to turn out for good anyway…so why worry? 

This is still something I am working on. Please pray for me, friends. 
Thank you for your patience with me. 

God Bless you all. 

Be blessed, dear Christian friends! 

Just a few passages that have been working on my heart lately. Great reminders of God’s love for us displayed through His son Jesus Christ! 

Enjoy and God Bless you all!

He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins. Colossians 1:13-14

For as by the one man’s disobedience the many were made sinners, so by the one man’s obedience the many will be made righteous. Now the law came in to increase the trespass, but where sin increased, grace abounded all the more, so that, as sin reigned in death, grace also might reign through righteousness leading to eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. Romans 5:19-22

And if Christ has not been raised, then our preaching is in vain and your faith is in vain. We are even found to be misrepresenting God, because we testified about God that he raised Christ, whom he did not raise if it is true that the dead are not raised. For if the dead are not raised, not even Christ has been raised. And if Christ has not been raised, your faith is futile and you are still in your sins. 1 Corinthians 15: 14-17

But in fact Christ has been raised from the dead, the firstfruits of those who have fallen asleep. For as by a man came death, by a man has come also the resurrection of the dead. For as in Adam all die, so also in Christ shall all be made alive. 1 Corinthians 15:20-22

For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved by his life. Romans 5:10

July Favorites-a few products

Peppermint tea 

You’re probably thinking, “tea? During the summer?” I like tea all year round and typically enjoy a few cups a day. Peppermint is so calming at the end of a long day. I currently have Tetley’ s Peppermint tea at home:


If I have one criticism it is that the pyramid bags don’t expand very well in the tea. The sides remain flat rather than fanning out like other pyramid bagged teas I’ve tried. Kind of defeats the purpose of the bag being made in that shape to increase the movement of the leaves inside. 
Bass Comb 


I got a new comb at the end of June and have been enjoying the way it has given my curls more bounce! Regular round brushes don’t give quite the same effect. This comb is great for detangling as well as styling. It works best when I brush my hair upward as shown in the picture above. I keep it in my purse for touch ups and totally feel like I should be in Grease or something.

Except I’m not a boy so I couldn’t be a T-bird…and I’m just not as cool. 

But anyway… Next item 

Ginger tea (homemade) 

My mom used to boil ginger root in water for me to make a natural ginger tea that helped me in high school with tummy aches. I had several tummy aches over the course of the month and found this old favorite do the trick. No need for medicine.

Colgate Total Advanced Pro-Shield Mouthwash 

The effects last all day. You can eat a can of sardines and still have pretty good breath. More importantly it helps prevent cavities. I’m very good at avoiding cavities, but it’s always good to go the extra mile- brush, floss, and rinse! 

(Raw) Naked Wild Honey 

This goes so well with all my teas- ginger included. If you want to try ginger tea for stomach pain, but are not a fan of the taste of ginger, you may find adding honey a big help. This honey blends so easily in any warm drink. I’ve found other honey I’ve tried to stick to the spoon and not blend into the mixture. 

There you have it for the month of July, folks! Thanks for reading! 

Would You Pray For a Grad Student (Part Two)- This is hard

While I’ve been enjoying school very much and learning a lot, the rest of my life has been really tough.

It’s been hard not to get anxious, but I’ve been dealing with it better than I have in the past.

But I can still do better.

There are times where I can say, “I’ll be fine. God will provide and will not forsake me” and times that are difficult and I say I believe those things, but don’t quite feel it.

Things have not been easy.

So many job interviews that go nowhere. I don’t even feel like going to any more just because I think they will be pointless.

I can always go back to freelance writing, but I would be underpaid for a lot of hard work and I don’t think that is fair. The Lord knows I need money for a driver’s license and a clearance card for my practicum classes. He will come through for me.

I am away from people that mean a lot to me and most days feel incredibly lonely. Doing school online is nice, but after a while I just get so sad and grow very tired of the same old thing every day. The same city, the same routine.

God always turns bad things into good for His glory.

Although I am having trouble seeing how or what He will do with my situation, I know He is not going to cause me to fall.

Please pray for me, friends! God will do something amazing here….we just have to have faith!

Would you pray for a grad student-part one 

No makeup! 

If you’ve been reading my blog for a while you know I like makeup. I even have two makeup routine posts because a few months after I posted the first one I bought new makeup and added those products to my routine and replaced a few things. 

I like how makeup can enhance what’s already there. A lot of people used to tell me growing up (and still do) that I have great eyes and naturally beautiful eyebrows 

My basic routine was just some eyebrow powder to fill in my brows, blush, and mascara. Nothing too complicated. After college I became interested in looking at pictures of models in full makeup and wondered how I could create a full makeup look for myself. That look is pictured above. 

So I went shopping for foundation and some other items..

More full face makeup:


I liked how I looked, but I was slowly becoming very dependent on my makeup. It got so bad I would get insecure just going to the laundromat to wash some clothes- no one wears make up at the laundromat, but I felt so awkward without makeup. Whenever my mom was talking to my grandma and aunt in the Philippines in a video chat and handed the phone to me to say hello, I would turn my head away if I had no makeup on and tell her I looked bad and didn’t want grandma to see my face. 

Wearing makeup when I was home all day seemed like a ridiculous idea, but if I could get away with it, I would have. 

 Hideous disgusting ugly gross 

Were just some of the words I used to describe my bare face. 

Last summer I tried not to wear a lot of makeup. We had a small reunion on my dad’s side of the family and were constantly going out early in the mornings to places like the beach and museums so I didn’t want to bother with makeup. 

But I couldn’t keep up with the change for very long. I just felt too insecure, especially when photos of my bare face were being tagged on social media. 

Even minimal makeup made me feel insecure:

I struggled to look at this photo when I took it in November. Now I think it’s actually a very nice photo. 

Makeup isn’t bad. I’m not saying that. I’m not even saying I won’t wear it anymore. For a night out or special occasion, of course I’ll wear makeup. But to lounge around with my friends or go to Target to buy shampoo do I really need to be wearing makeup? 

Am I really ugly without it? 

No, I’m not. 

And neither are any of the girls out there who feel “gross” without any makeup on. 

It breaks my heart to hear girls say they feel ugly. That is just not true! 

**images below found on We Heart It



I found this very helpful video that I think will really help a lot of girls feel better on the days when they aren’t wearing makeup.

  I will link it down below.

Heavy makeup is definitely the trend right now, but if you look at some of these makeup artists and celebrities without makeup on, they are still so beautiful! 

At the end of it all what people should and will find most attractive about a woman is her personality. A beautiful heart always shines brighter and is seen with or without makeup. 

That’s the girl I want people to know! The real me!

Wearing no makeup isn’t the fashionable thing to do, but I’ve always liked being different :) 

We need to embrace our differences more often. They are what make us all beautiful. 


 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. (‭1 Peter‬ ‭3‬:‭3-4‬ NIV)

Thank you so much do reading! God bless you! 

You ARE beautiful 

How to look beautiful with no makeup- Sona Gasparian